I've spent most of my life with varying degrees of anxiety. Anxiety which has held me back from truly pursuing the things that I want to achieve. I've been scared of trying, of failing, and most strangely, of actually succeeding in my goals.
After giving birth to my son I realized that I had already done the hardest and scariest thing that I could possibly do. Creating, birthing, and now raising an entire person has been a wild and rewarding ride that has given me a new found bravery and fearlessness that I did not know I could have.
I still spend a lot of time being anxious and afraid, especially when it comes to posting myself online. There is a constant fear of saying something wrong or stupid and that I might be judged and critiqued in uncomfortable ways. Even worse there is the fear that I will put myself out there and that no one will care about what I have to say or the art that I have to share.
I've decided that I don't want to be afraid anymore. I don't want to spend the rest of my life holding back from what I want to do. I have so much art I want to make and share. So much niche crafty knowledge that I want to spread to others. I want to be able to teach and inspire and help others grow in this weird and wild world we live in. So here's to a new beginning of not giving a f*ck.
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